he's gone again, i saw him yesterday and said goodbye. for me it was as hard as the first time. i know i'll see him soon but i just wish he never had to leave me. he knows that i feel that way because i tell him. i tell him i'll miss him and that i love him and care about him. its not often he'll say something like that back to me, but thats ok. it just makes the times that he does, feel even more important.
matt's the kind of guy who finds it hard to talk to anyone about anything serious. he avoids the topics however he can. when his barriers come down and he actually talks to me, even if its just for the night, i know its stuff he wouldnt tell just anyone. when he tells me things about his mum, things about his past, about his plans for the future it makes me smile. just knowing that im the person he's sharing this with makes me feel special and wanted.
we have so much fun together. always up to no good, whipping each other with tea towels, doing the cinnamon challenge, breaking into his own house to spend the night watching dragon ball z. i guess you could say he's like my best friend. we can spend days in each others company. we're always laughing and being cheeky and spontanious. yes we have silly little arguements, but thats to be expected even friends argue.
this whole long distance thing is going to be hard, thats for sure. especially when im used to having him so close. the thought that i cant just go round his for a cup of tea, or to watch a film, i cant even give him a hug when im feeling rubbish. hmm its hard, but theres nothing i can do. i want him to be happy, and if that means he's living with people who care about him then who am i to complain.
truth is i fell for him months ago and even though he's only just fallen for me it doesnt matter. he may be miles away, it might cost me a small fortune to go and see him, but i want to give this a go. i mean why not, if we cant make it work then at least we tried, right? for now im happy and i'd like to think he is too :)
matt's the kind of guy who finds it hard to talk to anyone about anything serious. he avoids the topics however he can. when his barriers come down and he actually talks to me, even if its just for the night, i know its stuff he wouldnt tell just anyone. when he tells me things about his mum, things about his past, about his plans for the future it makes me smile. just knowing that im the person he's sharing this with makes me feel special and wanted.
we have so much fun together. always up to no good, whipping each other with tea towels, doing the cinnamon challenge, breaking into his own house to spend the night watching dragon ball z. i guess you could say he's like my best friend. we can spend days in each others company. we're always laughing and being cheeky and spontanious. yes we have silly little arguements, but thats to be expected even friends argue.
this whole long distance thing is going to be hard, thats for sure. especially when im used to having him so close. the thought that i cant just go round his for a cup of tea, or to watch a film, i cant even give him a hug when im feeling rubbish. hmm its hard, but theres nothing i can do. i want him to be happy, and if that means he's living with people who care about him then who am i to complain.
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