Back again...

Seems like i cant keep away! I've contemplated many a time making a new blog, typical fresh start kind of thing, but i feel like this is my life now. This has been my way of expressing myself since 2010 i believe and even though my intervals are some what long i always find my way back. 
So where am i currently? Well shall i start with socially... I'm back at college for my 3rd year and unfortunately that wont be my last. After that shambles that you could call my A-levels it was quite clear that i needed to give it another/proper go. Get really stuck into my work instead of falling in love. A habit that I'm glad to say I've been set free of. It was quite a hassle getting me back into South Downs they put up a front telling me that i was a 'risk' and that they weren't keen on allowing me back due to my lack of commitment last year. To be honest i don't blame them, i was a nightmare. Thankfully they accepted me back but not without warning me that they would be "watching me" should i be scared aha?
I'm really enjoying the course though, i decided to do a Btec this time, no exams = less pressure the way i see it. I've always been more of a coursework kinda gal. The course is Creative Media - Print and Publishing so it would be amazing to get into the fashion/photography side of things. I've met some lovely people as well, some who i can see myself being really good friends with over the next two years. 
Work is still same old i suppose apart from the fact that I've now been moved upstairs to Men's and Kids instead of my beloved Ladies! It was a bit of a shock to the system really, i am so used to it being busy and hectic but upstairs is so much different. Its slower for sure, i would say quieter but the screaming babies contribute to that. 
Talking about screaming babies, that reminds me we've got a new baby to add to our little family, only ours isn't human. She's a gorgeous 12 week old Springer Spaniel puppy called Flossie. We've had her for about a month now and i wouldn't change a thing, she's the most adorable little thing in the world and she's certainly settled down into her new home. This is when we first got her and my god has she grown! Everyday its getting harder to pick her up, i wish she's stay a puppy for ever.
So most of my friends have buggered off to Uni now, leaving me at home to learn from my mistakes. I am so so envious of their lifestyle! My good friend Roxy came back down to see us and was describing this free, fun, enchanting life that she's been leading and i have no way to relate to that! I'm still living at home, not driving, putting on weight, still at college. It really does get me down sometimes when i think that i really did waste two good years of my life, but there is absolutely nothing i can do about it now apart from grit my teeth and bear the next two years with dignity and maturity. 
Boys? Yeah like that's even happening. Out of all my friends for a long time i was always the one with the boyfriend but the roles have most definitely been reversed. Now i seem to be the 3rd, 5th or even 7th wheel! It seems like all my friends have coupled up at once and left me to mull around in my loneliness. I am alone i suppose, but in a way its not really a bad thing. There are times like tonight when i think it would be lovely to have someone but if i really think about it, i can picture it being any one that i know. Which obviously means its just not the right time for me. There are a few boys, or should i say men, who have asked me out for drinks with them. But without being picky i really don't want to bother. Don't get me wrong they are all lovely people, i just cant picture myself with any of them. Who knows what I'm even looking for! I'm just hoping I'll realise when they come along.
Money is such an issue these days, i just need so much more of it. I guess its not just me in this boat thought. Everyone could benefit from a bit more cash. Its quite bad really that the only reason i want more money is to buy myself nice things. My style keeps changing at the moment and one day I'll be this emo goth chick with studs and skulls and the next I'm this girly girl with a pretty blouse and leggings! I don't know what to wear, i just know that i need more clothes and maybe a completely new look.

I've been contemplating getting a full fringe? really badly, I've always thought about it in the back of my mind but i seriously think i might just go ahead and do it! I mean whats the harm, if i really don't like it i can push it to one side and have a side parting again. Well that's my logic anyway! Hopefully i'll get it done some time next week by my friend Tash for only a tenner. Then maybe i'll post a picture? 
I do plan on being on here more often, but with work, college and extra college work and looking after a puppy its becoming hard to fit in a social life let along writing a blog post.