19 years old.

Well, today is my birthday. Im officially in my final year of being a teenager, and to tell you the truth, i don't feel any different. I know you never really feel much older, its just a day. Only this year feels different. Usually there is this whole kind of magic that comes about on your birthday and i just don't feel it any more. I knew this day would come when i'd just grow up and get over celebrating another year of my life.

I remember when i was younger and birthday used to be the best day of the year. Waking up extra early just so you can open your presents. Getting your favourite breakfast cooked for you. Spending the day in this happy bubble because you know that today was your day! Going out for dinner in a nice restaurant and blowing out the candles on your cake.

Dont get me wrong, this morning was lovely. My mum always does her very best to make it special for me. She blew up some balloons and set out my presents and cards on the coffee table so that i could open them with a cup of tea. It was sweet. My presents were more than i could have asked for and i am so grateful that i have such a wonderful family. The only problem was i didn't enjoy it as much as i used to. My sister wanted to go and get ready for college, my mum had to get ready for work and the morning just seemed rushed.

Im really finding it hard to explain i just feel like from now on my birthdays will never be the same again. From now on im just going to continue to get older and i wont really feel that magic ever again.. Growing up sucks!

Anyway i do have a nice couple of days planned, going for a meal tonight, seeing my dad tomorrow, getting drunk with my friends on Saturday and then seeing my mums family on Sunday. I really cant complain in the slightest. Im going to have a lovely weekend off and enjoy every minute of it.

So, Happy Birthday to me! Im going to make this year count.