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I was going to do a blog about how bad i want a lip piercing but its such a petty thing to discuss. About 5 minutes ago i found out some terrible news. It made me go into deep thought about life. When worst comes to worst do you just end it yourself ? But thats the thing. How do you know when life is at its lowest point ? Is it selfish to commit suicide ? Or is it acceptable ? So many questions and so many opinions.

"To die in order to avoid the pains of poverty, love, or anything that is disagreeable, is not the part of a brave man, but of a coward." - Aristotle.

I find that there are many things rushing around my head as i write this. When i was younger, there were times when i was in a bad place. My family life was a wreck and the word 'friend' meant nothing to me. I turned to emotional music, dyed my hair black & hardly spoke a word to anyone. I self harmed and didnt think anything of it, untill one day i started getting suicidal thoughts. I didnt think that anyone would miss me. The strange quiet girl. Maybe it was better if i was gone, but i could never bring myself to do it. I guess i didnt have the guts. Because if you think about it, you have to have a strong stomach to be able to end your life with some pills, a knife or some rope.

All the time that i was thinking that my life was utter crap & not worth living, when there are people out there struggling to live another day. Looking back i feel pretty selfish. But no one ever understood the pain and suffering. Just as i never thought to look twice at them. I thought they had a usual life. I guess you can never truly see behind closed doors.

Just because this is ironic...

The song for the day is Famous Last Words - MCR.