hmmm ....

Its late & my brain is going over so many things at the moment. I could really do with sleep, but i feel that if i dont get this off my chest i wont sleep very well.

You know when your standing with the person you really like, but you know they're about to say something utterly devestating. You go weak at the knee's, you hold back the emotions and act like everythings ok, biting your lip in hope that you dont have to say anything brash. As he walked me home, i was constantly expecting him to turn to me and say that what we had could never be anything more.

I dont understand why people have to get involved, and make their opinion known to everyone. But they do. I just wish their petty involvement didnt have such an effect on my life.

So tonight has been one full of emotions, negatives and positives. I plan on getting into bed now & forgetting all about my troubles. Or at least try to.