The End?

In recent discussion i found a conversation that occurred, that terrifies me. What happens to us when we die? I'm not talking about the decomposition of the body, when shut in a coffin deep underground. Or even the ashes that are left once one is cremated. I'm talking about the voice inside your head that controls the feelings and emotions. Where does it go ? How will we know when 'the end', is really 'the end'? Its something that has baffled me from a young child. I must have been pretty strange to be thinking of such things at the age of 11+. I remember asking my mum this question one day. The response i got was "Well Jess, that's a very dark subject for you to be thinking about." But i couldn't stop thinking about it. Do our memory's disappear along with our thoughts? But if so then what is left when we die. Is it a total dark abyss. And even if it is, will we understand that this is death?

When conversing, it came up that do we really know where our memory came from? What triggered the mind to start working. Clearly in theoretical terms the fact that we started living must be why we started thinking. But no one really remembers what they were thinking when they were a baby. When being fed by my mother was i thinking at the time "God give me something nice to eat please woman." Or when my dad was chucking me in the air after the feeding was i thinking "Stop now or i will spewww all over you." I cant remember at all. But i know i must have been thinking something, right ?

I guess it just scares me really that after life, what is there? What do i have to look forward to, or fear? Personally i believe in reincarnation. But to be totally honest, no one knows. And that just adds to the fear. No being able to understand or decipher is something that all humans fear at some point in their life. And unfortunately death is inevitable. It will happen, its just the case of when.

All these questions and none ever to be answered. Or will they .........?