Mistakes...

...should only be made once. After that you should learn from them, pick up the pieces and move forward with your life. Some thing my dad always used to tell me. I guess he felt no need as i got older. Because i was making less mistakes in life. But there came a time 2 years ago, when i let my parents down and made the biggest mistake ever. Saying that the whole of 2008 was a mistake. I crushed my mum and dad in a way that no kid ever should. And the look of dispair and dissapointment in their eye's was heart wretching. I never want them or me to be in that position again. I hurt them bad and for that im deeply sorry.



But obviously, its not just my parents i've made mistakes with. Friendships have gone completely down the drain over time. There are people whom i held very dear to me that i've pushed away untill they realise they dont want/need me anymore. If i could take it all back i would because i still miss them. People who understood me for who i am and have been happy to put up with my bonkers personality.



Some of my relationships have been killed by mistakes. I've hurt people bad. And been hurt in return, but i've realised that there's no need for that. I've always felt that in relationships every one should get a second chance. We're only human designed to make mistakes. Its like trial and error. But we can change, become better versions of our former selves. And in the long run. Not make the same mistake twice.



I look back and see how i treated my sister over our childhood so far. At times i've been such a bitch to her. God just thinking about it now i realise that she's actually such a great kid. Amazingly smart, pretty, so talented and i never tell her. I made the mistake once of pushing her in rage. Not realising how tall she had got, she pushed me back and i stumbled. This was the first time that had ever happened. And i will not be doing it again.



And i think worst of all i've made mistakes for myself. Every mistake i've made in life so far has been my fault. I've brought it all upon myself. And im not sorry for that. What ever mistake i've made is one less to be made in the future. (: